Normally I'm pretty positive about having Celiac's Disease.
After all, it has changed my life.
No more bloated tummy and tummy aches after every meal, no more migraines, no more clumsiness, no more foggy brain, no more fatigue.
But with all of these things I have gained, I have lost a lot in the process.
And like I said, most of the time I am happy to give up things so that I gain so much more.
But not today.
Sometimes I get angry that even the tiniest bit of gluten in my food sends me straight to bed with terrible pains in my stomach.
I get angry when we pay money (and lots of excitement) to go to a concert only to have to go sleep in the car during it because the restaurant we ate at cross-contaminated their food and made me sick sick sick.
I sometimes get jealous when I can't have birthday cake with everyone else.
Or go get ice cream when something good has happened {it's always been my special treat}.
I get jealous when I smell freshly baked bread at family gatherings or restaurants.
Road trips are harder because we can no longer stop at a fast-food restaurant at an exit.
Now we either have to plan ahead with food in a cooler, or open up a can of Amy's soup and heat it up beside our car.
Subway? I miss Subway.
I get angry and sad when I know that one of the causes of my miscarriages and health struggles is Celiac's.
Most of the time I don't miss gluten or bread or pasta or milk or eggs.
But today I do.
I hate being "that girl" who asks a million questions when someone tries to fix food for us, or having to decline offers of fellowship with friends when they are having a cook-out.
Or having to leave someone's house early because I am having a reaction to the food they carefully prepared for me.
It's so awkward sitting at a table not eating anything while other people are enjoying their food.
And when the waitress continues to ask me if I want something to eat.
Yes I am hungry.
No, I can't eat your food.
Is this frustration worth it?
I'd say yes a million times over.
If you have celiac's you understand.
Would you trade bread, awkward conversations and occasional reactions for a life of better health?
Absolutely!
Even with the frustrations and annoyances, I am thankful.